Fritschie good

Today, I came the closest I've come to giving up on challenges I set up for myself. Note: I didn't. Mostly because I knew deep down that I was freaking out over what amounted to nothing. Been there before, and odds are I'll be there again.

Oddly enough, the thing that I chose to distract myself with was something else that normally would send me into an anxiety attack of gargantuan proportions. But, I went forth, despite the nagging instinct to freak out. No, tonight, I defied my gut feeling. I turned off the rest of the world as best I could, and in the end, I felt more like my ideal self than I have in years, if not ever before.

It feels really good to impress yourself. Restraint has always been a problem for me. Reserved is never a word to describe a guy like me. I am the reason candy bars are next to the register, and the reason every casino has an ATM. I've never been one to take just one bite of dessert. Tonight, I feel I walked away ahead and am a better man for it.

I sure as hell don't exactly know what is in store for me. All I really know is this: I'm not scared, and tonight, I had the best coffee ever.